I lost an easy chance to make three quarters of a million dollars. I’ll never forget that. But I don’t regret it.
Early in my career, I was working for a software startup company. I was the first employee the two founders hired. I was young and inexperienced, but I poured my heart into the startup and the founders appreciated what I was able to do for them.
As a result of my work there, they offered me the chance to buy stock in the company at a very reduced price. But these were not options — I actually had to buy the stock. I invested $3,000 of my pay into the stock.
After I left the company, my new wife and I were getting ready to buy our first house. We needed to scrape together a down payment. I sold one of our two cars; we would get by with one. And I kept thinking about the $3,000 in stock. Because the company was privately held, the only legal way to sell it was to find another investor in the company and sell it to him.
With the help of the company’s founders, I connected with one of their angel investors. He was willing to buy my shares for $6,000. I figured that doubling my money was a pretty good return, especially because I had little faith that the company would ever succeed. I’d already had experience with shares in a previous startup that ended up worthless. So I pocketed the $6,000 and, adding that to the rest of the money we’d saved, we put down a down payment on a house.
About two years later, something happened that I didn’t expect. The startup company defied my expectations and had an IPO. I did the mental math and figured out how much my shares would have been worth if I’d held onto them and sold them on the first day of the IPO.
A story like that isn’t worth much unless you learn from it. And I did learn something. I still think my judgment about the company was accurate — and sure enough, it tanked a few years after going public. But my alternatives were not “keep the stock” or “sell the stock.”
There was a third alternative: a hedge. Keep some and sell some. Certainly, in hindsight, it might have been better to keep the stock. But lacking a crystal ball, I could not have know that. However, I could have, say, sold three quarters of the stock and pocketed $4500. The extra $1500 wouldn’t have made a big difference in the down payment. But in the unlikely event of the company going public, I would still have an upside. In this hypothetical scenario, I would have netted $187,000.
Whenever I have a financial choice to make now, I try not to go all or nothing. I seek the hedge. I look for a taste of the upside and protect against the downside. It was a hard lesson to learn, but it did stick.
The rest of the story
As I look back on this story, which I’ve told myself and others many times, I have realized that there is more to it than I thought.
You see, I made a nice profit selling that first house we bought and moving up to a bigger one.
I invested in the new house with money from a different company, one that I never expected to go public, but did. The profit from that was well ahead of what I would have gotten from my $3,000 worth of stock in the startup’s IPO.
The new house has appreciated in value, like all the other real estate in Boston, and one of these days I’ll sell the house and move somewhere cheaper — and clear a lot more than than the money I never got from the startup’s IPO.
Unlike the shares in the startup, I made an investment I could actually live in, and raise a family in. It paid off in more ways than financially. It paid off emotionally. And it made me smarter.
Not many people can tell a story of how they threw away three quarters of a million dollars. Sure, in hindsight, I might have done things differently. But I wouldn’t trade the life I have now, and the years I’ve spent since then, for ten times that price.
Maybe you made a decision you regretted. Maybe you learned something, as I did.
Live the live you have, not the life you could have had. You never know what’s around the next corner.
2 responses to “Paths not taken”
Oh, if only we were all homo economicus! We’d all know how to make the most rational investment and buying decisions. Life would be very different.
The competitive playing field would be completely different! Everything would come down to luck. Money and power would still be distributed on a power law curve, and those with rich and powerful parents would always have the advantage, and there would be almost no class mobility. But maybe we wouldn’t judge people for being unlucky, or credit them with being lucky, either.
One of the most under-appreciated questions about strategic resource investment is how much time you should initially spend learning strategic investment skills. It’s a chicken-egg problem. You need to understand the value of strategic investment to realize that you need to learn strategic investment skills! Or you need to be lucky enough, and attentive enough, to learn it by accident. We should teach it in schools. Except it defies our intuitions, which tell us that life is up to fate, and that if we deserve to succeed, we will. So people ignore the value of good decision-making, until they get that fallacy of fateful success burned out of them by the flames of experience.
I had so many misses on companies I knew were in a great spot, but according to “normal” valuations, their stock always looked waaaay overpriced.
My most famous… Microsoft, Apple, Amazon (who didn’t make much profit for YEARS). Could have been a millionaire multiple times over.
Could have bit early on Bitcoin too – by far more speculative. But, the people pushing that came across as charlatans, though I had a good grasp of the technology.
Without that crystal ball, we all make choices based on what is in front of us, our knowledge level, and with our personal appetite for risk.
Over 10 years ago (but after 2008) there was much ado about deficits, easy money monetary policy and the probability of inflation.
I hedged for that (though nothing drastic like physical gold, art, etc – just a re-weighting stocks/bonds) – wrong move. Missed some of that incredible run on stocks since.
Now that double headed boogieman has reappeared. Should we believe the current (and ever present) prognosticators?